bloodsick remedy

you're up late, aren't you?

no, no. please, make yourself comfortable. it's always nice to have company. where are you going at this time?

well, i'm sure you can rest here for a minute, right? it'd be a shame to leave so soon. i have so much to tell you.

say, are you hungry? because i could definitely go for a bite, yknow..?

27/05/26

hi divas, long time no update..........
but i've been incredibly busy for the last few weeks prepping for twice london! i've been sewing a replica of jeongyeon's beige set me free outfit. it's not an exact copy, but an homage. it has been HELL to figure out the pattern because i've never made a corset before in my life. my mother and i have been collaborating on it, because she used to work in a sewing factory (her favourite job she's ever done) back when the uk still used to manufacture it's own clothes. it's finally in a spot where it's starting to look good!
we set off for london on monday, so i will be absent for a week. but i promise i have moer plans for the site! i also want to make a page dedicated to the trip. maybe i'll make a memories section?
off topic, but paralives, right? i'm enjoying it so far and can't wait to see more. i really love the build mode, but i've encountered a few bugs so far. will probably actually write my thoughts for it at a later date!

20/05/26

i've had a rough couple days, ngl. just the medical system in the uk being trash.. don't want to get too into it, just that doctors need more original ways to dismiss peoples problems lol.
but! can you believe, the site is almost set up and functional! today i put together my media blog. i took some reviews i wrote last year and put them in there. i also collected all the albums i currently own and listed those on there. if you hover you can see album titles and little notes i wrote. eventually i'll be putting things like shrines on that section, but as of now it serves it's purpose!! i only included music in my collection, and only that which i have physical media of. if i did video games we'd be here all week!!!! maybe some day though ;P.
i'm quite pleased with how things are coming along. i mean, i know the code is really messy and inefficient and i hope nobody takes a look at my disaster code LOL but i'm happy with what i've created! i've gotten super passionate about my little webpage! and might even make an application to join a webring soon..........
though i might even reformat this page a little. nothing massive, though. just tidy it up so the code isn't spaghetti ;P.

17/05/26

not been working on the site much these past couple days! went out for bottomless brunch at tgi fridays yesterday. it was a lot of fun. had like 5 cocktails and like 6 small plates of food between the three of us. i went shopping to start replacing my entire wardrobe because most of it i simply do not like to wear anymore. turns out my current obsession is brown cowboy clothes. so i also ordered some camp cowboy boots.
my relationship with my wardrobe has shifted ever since i came to the conclusion that just because i am genderqueer does not mean i owe anybody androgyny. coming a long way with that. but essentially i want to get rid of my "easy" clothes. the things i throw on because they're comfy and low maintenance. i want to be more encouraged to dress well in clothes that make me happy as opposed to clothes that just function as something to cover my body. i have pyjamas, so i need less clothes like that in my wardrobe and more clothes that i actually like to wear.
it can be tricky to manage that sort of thing with autism, sensory issues and all. i generally hate most jeans, but i've learned that as long as they're not skin tight, they actually don't feel too bad!
of course, now i'm broke again. the cycle continues.

14/05/26

coding is hard ya'll. but it's also rewarding. i spent hours today setting up my oc page and making the first character page. i've started with my vtm campaign, even though those characters don't have as much art from me as others. idk why i started there, tbh. i suppose it encourages me to draw at least.
i had a meeting today, as well. it went well. i have these meetings once a month and we talk about finances, life stuff, career stuff yadda yadda. i talked about wanting to reopen my etsy shop and the progress on my medical situation. was pretty chill. the guy who i have my meetings with is chill anyway so it wasn't too bad.
i also have this stupid cut inside my nose rn that's really bothering me. i accidentally maybe kind of hit myself in the face and my nose piercing cut the inside of my nose. lol.

13/05/26

i've not been very productive these last couple of days. but i did some work on the site today. yesterdat i just reformatted a little. got some inspiration from my friend settlement-03 and decided to give the site a little more identity. the blog posts are staying as they are for now. i think keeping up the bit in what's essentially a diary would be tough. though it doesn't make me feel like the blog posts should be separate from the main page? like, linked from my about page/the patient? but then i'm not sure what i would put in this space instead. much to think about.
i sold the last piece of stock from etsy shop today so i can put it on hiatus for my upcoming london trip. yay! i also have a meeting tomorrow. it should be fine but it doesn't mean i'm happy about it lol. had a bit of a fight with my printer, but otherwise okay.
not much else to report today really.

11/05/26

man, i'm tired lol.
last night i was working on my webmaster/about page and a huge fucking spider came down from the ceiling and stared me in the face. it was like midnight and i screamed lol. my cats came to defend my honour. i went to brush my teeth before bed and when i came back in the room, the spider was nowhere to be seen. i'm choosing to belief my cat ate it. for my sanity.
anyway, today was my first dental appointment for my crown treatment. basically i had a root canal treatment late february. the nhs is baso collapsing so i struggled to get a dentist for like 5 years, so i got this treated on emergency. but they wouldn't do the crown as an emergency treatment, even though my tooth could just fucking break without it. so we had to go private.
so today it was just the consultation. it was fine and now i'm all booked up for july to get my treatment. not cheap though. but i'll be happy when it's done. i've not eaten on that side of my mouth in years.... i actually have a major dental phobia due to medical malpractice in my childhood, so this stuff is really difficult for me. but i'm powering through. it's not so much that i'm afraid of dentists, it's more that i'm afraid of tooth-stuff. like decaying, rotting, falling out. when movies do a pov from inside the mouth that really freaks me out.
i don't generally mind the gag stuff when it comes to when people spit out a tooth after a punch. but i probably would if it showed the like... i wanna say socket? but that doesn't feel right, lol. if i'm like in a scenario where i expect to be scared like horror movies, i don't generally have an issue with it. like the teeth stuff in resident evil 9 didn't really bother me. like it was freaky, but that's kinda the point. but like when it shows up in little shop of horrors, i can't rly watch the entire dentist stuff even though i love that film LOL. the teeth scene in the substance i didn't even TRY to watch it. emma covered my ears and told me to cover my eyes, so i don't imagine i would've handled it well.
i've gotten a LOT better, though. with all this recent dentist stuff, i've been kind of forced to have exposure therapy for the good of my health. it's been beneficial to my mental health, but not my wallet that's for sure.
regardless, i finished my about page now. kind of, it's serviceable. there's still stuff i wanna add, like a favourite characters thing. and i need to make the cat page work that it links to. so much stuff to do, diva.

10/05/26

i ordered cake today lol. i had £20 in my paypal so i was craving cake so i ordered me and em a cakeaway.
we get cake delivery from this bakery not far and they have the biggest freaking slices i've ever seen, so i always have to cut the slice in half and save some for later because it's so huge. good value for money though, imo. it's like a little over £5 for a gigantic slice, that is about the size of 2 regular cake slices so when you think about it that way it's kinda more like £2.50ish for per slice lol.
my status.cafe account got activated today! so now i gotta figure out where i wanna put that. like should it be on the home page? or shall i put it on my webmaster page? i mean i don't currently have space of it on the homepage but i could move some shit around... much to consider.

anyway i fixed the nav buttons. they still don't have anywhere to link yet, but the home button being red with an underline bc i didn't use onclick was starting to bother me so i fixed it lol.
i think my mode of operations here is to do the pages webmaster > character directory? just because that's why i started the site. i'll be extreeeemely gradually adding my ocs, start with my vtm characters most likely and very slowly add new characters over time. i have a stupidly high number of ocs, so i'm not sure i will archive every single one of them here. but for now there's my toyhou.se and my friend avery's stories page documents a couple of my ocs as well.
also, i, like everyone else, has been playing tomodachi life. my island is called TWICEland and is populated mostly by TWICE and my ttrpg characters. my ravnos vampire leon was confessed to by ebony dark'ness dementia raven way, im nayeon from twice and kagami kawaiine and he rejected all of them. tragic. i currently only have tzuyu and chaeyoung of twice missing on my island. i need to make them soon.

09/05/26

saturday is ttrpg day and this week were playing vtm, probably my favourite ttrpg in existence. i just love the white wolf games a lot. it was emma's turn dming today which is fun, she's a very loose planning dm which always makes sessions interesting because literally anything can happen. there is never a set path and there is always chaos. very fun, i like that in our group we have such a variety of dming styles. it really makes each campaign have such a sense of identity.
it was also my cat's birthday today!! his name is adonis but i call him bonbon. it's complicated lol. he started as adonis, then donnie, then don, which eventually evolved to bon/bonnie, which in english sland is like good looking. no relationto the fnaf character, though when my fiance put a fnaf video essay on he did sit and watch the screen the whole time, so maybe some relation.
he was 8 today, it's crazy i've had him so long. i got him when he was 4 months old from an animal shelter. he had 2 sisters alana and amara, and i really wish i knew who had his sisters because i think it'd be so cute to reunite them and see if they remember each other just once.
here's a picture of him!

as a rare birthday treat i gave them some chicken for dinner. i just boiled it, so nothing fancy, but a nice treat for them and nothing potentially hazardous for them!
we had korean barbecue chicken over sticky rice, but i started taking my antidepressants again and they make me really tired for a couple weeks so fell asleep on the couch at about 5pm. whoops!! and i had wanted to work on the site and do some drawing lol. oh well, always tomorrow (well, i'm writing this tomorrow. so today, i guess.)

08/05/26

today i increased my med dose. i'm taking gabapentin atm and i have to work up to 3 tablets 3 times a day, 9 in total. i just increased from 1 tablet 3 times a day, to 2 tablets. so far no real side effects which is nice!!
i made a button today. i don't love animating or pixel art, but i think it turned out well and i don't mind doing the odd blink cycle every now and then. honestly, the pixel art part wasn't all that bad. i still don't intend to consider this site "live" til my navigation links actually work lol.
i've been wondering if it would make more sense to have this area be a site updates area and move the blog to a separate page. coz then i could include images and stuff. i mean, i can include them here too but idk i wonder if it's a little clunky/weird to have this box here. i'm also trying to decide if i want a guestbook or not. i both feel a level of anxiety about the idea of having people be able to comment on my site but also like the idea of people being able to be like hey i like similar stuff to you so i can check them out, yknow?
i also made and updated the graphics for my landing page. i think i like them? but i'm not sure. they're supposed to kinda look like manga panels? but im too addicted to this specific csp pencil to make them believably manga panels. the second one has a nosebleed. i don't think vampires can get nosebleeds, but i liked the aesthetic lol.
i've been listening to a lot of interesting digicore lately so i've made another inspiration playlist. so i might actually make some more music soon. maybe. i've been really vibing with the new tiffany day album and i recently discovered 8485 so i've got a little inspiration going on atm. fingers crossed.

07/05/26

i'm going to the twice concert in london soon. i'm like excited but also terrified, because i'm not done with my freebies yet or my outfit aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. plus it's my first ever kpop concert and i don't even know how to hand out the freebies lol. i'm assuming it's just in the line? but who knows. if you're curious i bias jeongyeon but i'm an ot9 collector, my bias wreckers are chaeyoung and dahyun.
i'm making a replica of jeongyeon's set me free desert damask corset top but i've never actually sewn a corset before so i'm kinda nervous lol. i just got the email from the hotel as a reminder for the trip and now i'm gonna explode aaaaaaaa. i'm so glad all the girls are back now. i was gonna be so sad if dubchaeng weren't both there.
i've made my landing page now with a disclaimer for the crt and potential nsfw. i don't think it's worth flagging my page as 18+ because i don't think i'm going to post anything too graphic??? but obviously i'll change that stuff if i ever do.
i have no intention of ever formatting the site for mobile. this page should be mobile compatible, but the rest probably won't be. sorry to mobile users i just don't see the point :P. i also changed the url to bloodsick over yunxue since i haven't finished the site yet and nobody knows it exists yet, i figured it wouldn't matter.

06/05/26

started putting together a layout today for the site. she's a bit ratchet but that's ok, the point is i did it myself and i had some fun doing it. i know this code is deeply inefficient, but idc because it's mine.
right now i'm using tomie placeholders but i have full intentions of making original assets for the sidebar image and header.
none of the links work yet, because i want to make sure the homepage functions first. it's kind of nice to have a project that doesn't require drawing or music production at the moment, because i'm finding those things tricky lately. i'm hoping synth v andi will save me.

05/05/26

i had a doctors appointment today to review my medication. i have some spinal problems, including osteophytes in my neck, some disc bulging and dehydration in my lower back and possibly other issues (hoping to get an updated mri soon). i was given a medication called baclofen to try two weeks ago but it made me sick, so i'm trying a different medication now. fingers crossed!

04/05/26

got uber pissed off at toyhou.se today. the email attached to my account is compromised because it uses mail.com as an email provider and they're super useless, so despite having the login details, i can't log in because i don't have the same number anymore and they are completely ignoring me. anyway, the reason i'm mad at toyhou.se is they say they can't help me change the email despite having done it for other people in the past and an area in their updates saying this is possible.
this bothered my so much that it finally pushed me to start actually coding this website lol.

updates

27/05/26
- new blog post.
22/05/26
- radio synced.
21/05/26
- art gallery opened.
20/05/26
- new victim revealed.
- media notes uncovered.
- new blog post.
17/05/26
- new blog post!
- familiars summoned!
13/05/26
- began implementing "victims" page.
- first victim named.
- new blog post.
13/05/26
- added credits & resources page.
- new blog post.
12/05/26
- reformatted about page.
- added not found page.
11/05/26
- about page created.
- main site updated.
- new blog post.
10/05/26
- new blog post.
08/05/26
- site button & new graphics added.
- new blog post.
07/05/26
- landing page created.
- new blog post.
06/05/26
- designed and coded layout.
- new blog post.
05/05/26
- new blog post.
04/05/26
laid out the foundations for success.

coterie